Saturday, November 29, 2008

On the Error-terror....

Date:27th,Nov,2008.Time:00.30AM,Mumbai
I was fast asleep and I got a call from my brother in America asking "There seems to be a blast in Mumbai,are you safe in Mumbai?". I said Yes and slept...soon one more call came from my friend stating the same message with more fear.I was little shaken and slept back again....The whole night I had something running in my mind..I was not able to distinguish whether it was my dream or truth....But fear was building up in my heart.I had a drowsy sleep till the morning dawned....

Very soon I got up...I switched on the TV and browsed through the News channels to find about the terror I heard in the night...Hell...I felt this was much more in intensity than the ones we saw in the past.They were telling that there is fight going on with the terrorists in the Taj,Oberai & the Nariman house.Down came the first call from my mom,with lot of fear she asked if I was safe.....I said "Yes".

Sooner or later all my friends called up....I felt like I was in grave and striving to get up...I was really sad about why all this should happen in this world with so much hatred.I felt the terrorist are not the humans we talk about.They are some cold blooded machines to Kill and getting destroyed.I can't see them like dying,but a machine getting damaged or exploded.I don't see any good reason for them to attack us and spoil the peace we all bestow in our lives.

The whole of Mumbai seemed to have been glued into the TV sets watching the Times,NDTV & other news channels.I saw Mumbai like never before in my 10days stay there.There was so much panic.I felt more heat when my company called up and asked me to move to Delhi.

Date:28th,Nov,2008,Mumbai
Finally my company HR decided it was safe to move out of Mumbai though I didn't feel like moving to Delhi,I need to push off to the Airport.I saw the streets almost empty,with most of the shops around closed and the sense of fear was well felt.

I felt everyone around was in loss from the guest house I lived(27 bookings got canceled for them in that one day) to the Cab I traveled(The driver hardly got any customers going out) & everything seemed more like a troubled occasion.

Sometimes fate is good to a few and bad to a few.I met a couple of good fated people who narrowly missed all this terror attacks.

1.My Cab driver drove past the Marine drive at 8.30PM with his Chinese customer having his dinner in the Chinese restaurant.He escaped in a matter of an hour to be precise as the attack was there around 9.30PM.
2.My co-passenger in the flight to Delhi was a Canadian who was supposed to stay in the Oberai and attend a meeting in the Taj.He came a day late which saved his life & also the people who accompanied him.
Maybe one of the closest escapes.
3.There was also a attack in the other side of my office at Ville parle at around 10PM...I left that place by 7.30PM


I felt like this is one of the worst terror attack our mother nation has ever experienced.But we cannot stop our lifestyle.We should not abstain from anything because of these ruthless machines-Terrorists.We should never fear a machine we cannot repair, we need to be united,we need to fight the error,terror and destroy to core.This cannot happen if we fear and stay away.We need to prove them wrong by getting back to routine as soon as possible.We lost a lot in this attack,but we got a good opportunity to unite and live together & show to the rest of the world that India is Safe place to Live.

Last but not the least,I salute the martyrs who lost their lives,especially their families & friends.The only way to show our gratitude is to move freely without expressing our fears by showing our faith in our safeguard forces,let's live & not fear the terror.

Let us all join together,Sink our differences,Rise above our petty jealousies and rivalries and remain as one,strong,unified Indian.
JaiHind!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

The 24th Birthday...

Yea am completing my 24years of existence in this world and starting my 25th year into this world.For many years my birthday has always been something similar and I have many to be around with....My mom making the sweets,my friends wishing me & going out for some party...
And the celebration,though very small goes on till the night dawns...

But this one is different,I'm in mumbai this time and it's really different to me...I dont know anyone here...I see a lot of people,speak to many but none is closer to me..A world whole lot of difference...A place where no-one understands the languages I speak,a place where temptations are high,but the real difference is I'm not able to celebrate...I'm hating the way life is turning out to be....A lot difficult than it used to be....

Well....the sweet factor is many of my friends wished me as usual. I'm glad that my brother who usually wishes at normal hours,wished me at midnight though far away...& my best friend wished me first...I felt I'm gifted with so many good people around me...the subtle loneliness in me kept through the day with memories of the past and the lingering thoughts of the past which I felt it the time to feel and fall in love with the past on this day.Rather I felt why not celebrate somewhere but have a huge lot of dumb work as usual and left of no choice than to work... :(

I'm not sure why am writing all this maybe my sad outburst might bring in some solace to my heart....sometimes you also want to try writing when sad also...:)

Many times I've felt life is not at all changing for me when I was in college or school.But after that it is all but changes for me...life is changing like a roller coaster that I could hardly breath my way through...the transitions are sometimes very nice when it's new but now I feet like "Life Give me a break....."

Maybe this is one birthday I would love to forget...I never wrote anything before on my birthdays as it was usual...

As I cross past my quarter century am crying three quarters more...Donno where all this would head-on...as usual whatever I thought is not what I got,yet whatever I got is not what I thought!! As life flows...hope floats!!

Monday, September 15, 2008

On being Alone....

Life a little mistry as it always been....I'm writing on the thoughts embarking from my heart on living alone after many eventful years of living under the shelter of my family and friends....
A few good things being alone are first to say....
  • There's no-one to comment on anything I do...good or bad...
  • I laugh,cry,sing or dance without any hindrances around and am not bound to any kindof controls....
  • I can take my time to talk to myself and others with my own freedom....
  • Put the speaker's with full volume!!

A few bad things which needs attention are....

  • Many things happen uncontrolled...sleep,food,etc.,
  • I tend to strain too much in my laptop as no-one to say "That's enough!"..
  • I sometimes spend sleepless nights as I forget to switch the speaker's before sleep...

A few discoveries/improvements are...

  • Lost a lot of my anger as I started being alone...
  • I realised that I don't fear the dark...
  • Started listening to more carnatic flavoured & devotional music which i've never listened before...
  • Felt the neccessity and importance of people around me....started valuing and building relationships....
  • I saw the positives in every negatives I see in this world...the other side of everyone's action sounds to have some meaning and reasoning as well... :)

With the positives moving me forward...and the negatives driving me crazy....I felt writing down makes some sense for me to understand on the negatives and for others planning for staying alone might get the subtle acpects of it.....I shall update this blog just incase I find something new and interesting!!!

Update-1:

After three months being alone, I felt loneliness for the first time,when I fell ill.I did overcame it by spending time with my friends...yet I felt is it a need for me to be alone, given all it's advantages,I did not wanna solitude take over my life...I started reconsidering it!!!

Update-2:

For any social animal like me,living alone is difficult.I was giving all the reasons about staying alone and now I backed myself back with my friends....Life is new again...




Monday, April 21, 2008

Bangalore-Chennai-The Journey

I did think for quite some time on which topic I'm going to pen down in the next blog I write.I had quite a few choices.Yet,I felt this would be apt choice to write next coz I felt I need to pen this out.Every time I travel between bangalore and Chennnai,It is indeed a different experience and a lot of interesting people,interesting incidents and accidents have happened all the time.A few random facts are...

  • I get to speak with a lot of strangers(Infact all are stangers),we speak a lot for hours on all topics from public to personnal topics in the journey and we dont exchange any information which can be carried forward.
  • I've never seen a person wanting to get my contact once the journey is over and never had a chance to get any contacts too..we always say Nice meeting!!
  • Sometimes it's the eyes doing the talk too...with strangers of the opposite sex!!! and recognising with smiles too.....
  • Some try to blow their trumpets a little more than wat actually is...
  • Once we ended up spending ticket of around A/C class ticket while on a unreserved coach....That's called fate...
  • Most people offer food and other things though nobody accepts it for the sake of it...

And many more funny things which I often come accross in my journeys....one sweet thing is the journey is never the same......